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Apr. 14th, 2009

Sing for me....

Sing me a song with meaning.  Make me fall....make me fall asleep.  I'm asleep and I am dreaming.  This dream is good. 

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The Bitter Suite.


Darkness, hesitation
I fell into her arms
Breathe in, this is amazing
Breathe out, this is amazing
She removed her clothes and all of the world shined
Now that we're alone all of the world shines
First hot breath, then cold hands
Intrustion, but aware
The Fire inside was all light and she bloomed
And i never knew life could ever be this good
The distant sighs, the clothes on the floor
The bedding a mess, she sings for more

We fall beneath the sea in the back of our hearts and fail to breathe until we resurface again

She had the summer's smile with winter's skin
And all along with words beyond me she welcomed me in

We fall beneath the sea in the back of our hearts and fail to breathe until we resurface again

Mar. 17th, 2009

I'm sure you have heard this before....

"YOU CAN'T TURN A HO INTO A HOUSEWIFE!"
 
WHORE!!!!!!



UGLY WANNABE WIFE/MOTHER of MY CHILD!!!!!!!!!

This bitch WISHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


The end.

-Brandy Nicole Peake-

Mar. 3rd, 2009

Just a little story....

Introduction:

There is a girl in her late 20's.  She is pretty and fun and loves making new friends.  Sometimes she can be very naive.  We'll call her Vixen.

There is a girl in her early 20's.  She isn't very pretty at all however, she has larger breasts than most girls her age.  Her breasts sort of keep her self esteem to a level just high enough so she can *think* she's pretty, or hott, or at least help her achieve and receive the type of attention she wants and/or desires.  We'll call her Coyote.

There is a boy in his late 20's.  He is a know it all.  My first impression of him was that he was a light drinker and an undercover nerd.  He dressed some-what cool but had the gayest hairstyle ever.  Not that you should judge a book by it's cover but he seriously had to have had the same haircut since he was 6 or 7 years old!  His name will be Elan.

There is a girl in her mid-late 20's.  She's a cool chic who I wouldn't call a light drinker but does seem to get trashed pretty quick.  She is actually very funny when she's drunk.  She's also very loud and cusses a lot!  I think her name will be Natty.

There is a boy in his early 20's.  He's a really cool guy.  He's an extreme flirt.  He loves music and seriously should have tried to be a singer in a band or something.  The boy can sing!  We will call him Ringo.

There is a boy in his early 20's.  He used to be really cute.  My first impression of him was that he was really funny and we could have a lot of fun together.  Although he isn't really attractive and the normal girl on the street would look at this guy and  definitely not look again, he has a personality that is very appealing and he somehow manages to use that, along with his charm, to pull you in.  He is definitely good at what he does.  His name will be Thorn.

There is a guy in his early 20's who is very handsome and cool.  He reminds me of James Dean.  He tries so hard to be a player; with girls of course.  He thinks sports are gay and is a big fan of music.  His name will be Jet.

There is a girl in her late 20's.  She is super awesome.  She can get along with almost anyone and everyone and fit in just about in crowd or scene.  She's not perfect but very pretty.  Her name shall be Wren.

There is a guy in his late 20's.  He used to be very popular and cool; at least he seemed that way at first.  He uses his money to get away with everything and to get what he wants, of course.  He isn't stupid but definitely not the sharpest tool in the shed!  We will name him Gossamer.

Now that I have named everyone so far, I will begin with my story.....

And so it begins.....

Jet and Vixen are hanging out with a group of mutual friends one evening at a bar called The Arching Bunker.  Jet and Vixen notice one another and the games begin.  Vixen knows that she is not interested in dating but thinks Jet is very handsome.  She begins to talk to him and pretend to laugh at his ridiculous jokes while also pretending to be interested in his friend.  Vixen was supposed to be on a date with Jet's friend, Caspian. 

I didn't bother giving you much information on Caspian because there really is no use.  Vixen never liked Caspian to begin with but was bored that evening and therefore accepted his invitation to hang out with him and his friends.  Not to mention the fact that Caspian was head over heels in love with her.  Love was the last thing on Vixen's mind!

Vixen and Jet managed to slip away by the end of the night.  They headed back to her place and continued to have a *blast*!  The next morning wasn't awkward at all.  They both woke up, played a bit, ordered food, and headed off to the river together.  They decided to keep what had happened between them a secret for a few reasons.  One reason was because Jet was friends with Caspian and they didn't want to upset him.  The other reason was because Vixen was friends with a girl named Fey who had a huge crush on Jet.  If Vixen hadn't known of this crush before hand, she probably wouldn't have cared so much.  Either way, Vixen and Jet thought it would be way more fun keeping their affair a secret.

Fey and Vixen weren't extremely close but both seemed to adore one another.  Fey often discussed her feelings about Jet to Vixen and even details of their sexual encounters.  Vixen pretended to listen to Fey and even give her advice on what fey wanted to call a "relationship" but there was no way Vixen was willing to share him.  Although Vixen didn't want to date Jet and definitely wasn't in-love with him,  she was extremely attracted to him and was in no way prepared to give up him, or the great sex they shared, to a goody-two-shoes like Fey. 

Coyote is always just shy of the attention she needs and decides to try out as a dancer for a country band named Wilted Bandages.  Surprisingly, she makes the dance group.  She immediately began to make friends with the coolest girl there named Catlin.  Catlin was very pretty and also very flirty.  Coyote used this to her advantage to gain even more attention from the guys in the band by hanging out with Catlin.  Catlin had no idea she was being used but enjoyed  thinking she made a new friend.   Putting all of her trust in coyote she  introduced her to her boyfriend, along with the other band members. 

The Wilted Bandages were scheduled to play in Georgia on a Saturday night and Coyote couldn't be more excited!  She told Catlin that she was nervous and needed to drink before the show to help calm her nerves.   Catlin and Coyote went to the nearest liquor store and bought a bottle of Cocoa Nut Rum.  The two began drinking and managed to drink almost half the bottle before the show began.  Throughout the show, Coyote and Catlin danced and sweat almost all of the alcohol away.  As soon as the show was over they ran back stage with the band and immediately started drinking.  Catlin was more into hanging out with her boyfriend so she didn't drink nearly as much as Coyote.  Coyote felt she needed to show off and continued to drink away.  It wasn't long before Coyote started flashing the guys in the band and trying to make-out with one of the members.  Of all people, she chose the married band member to make out with!  Coyote went on to make a fool out of herself throughout the night and Catlin was quite embarrassed the following day.

ughhh..., I'll write more later :)

Feb. 17th, 2009

I Want (Part Deus)

Soooo...I'm still waiting on my damn tax refund.  I am getting back over 3 grand and then an extra 5 hundred and something and THEN another 300 for that stimulous shit from last year.  Supposedly I was under paid.  Anyhow, aside from the tax checks, I'm also waiting on my new bad ass glasses to come in.  The doctor had to order the prescription lenses that I need so it'll be another day or so.  I also ordered a new phone that is also bad ass and it should come in soon, I hope!  Waiting....waiting...waiting....I HATE waiting!

I've started doing some small remodeling in the house.  I completely hooked up the library room!  It's super cool looking!  All I need now is a new light fixture and a futon.  I already know which one I'm getting (for both), it's just a matter of getting them.  Ha.  Plus, it would be super awesome if my money could come in already.  Dang. 

We are supposed to go look at some counter tops for the kitchen as well as some flooring.  We're going to completely remodel our house.  I'm stoked! :P  Plus, I get to do pretty much all of the painting!  I can't wait!  Hopefully all of the rooms will turn out as awesome as the library, A.K.A. My new room!


I'm working so I better go....

Feb. 4th, 2009

I want...

I want, I want, I want!!!

I want sooo many things and I just can't wait for them!  I don't know how to wait!  It sucks!  I want things when I want them.  >NOW!

Take the lottery for example.  I want to win that shit soo bad right NOW.  Of course I'm not going to.  I'm going to end up getting rich the old fashioned way and then when I'm old and living happily on my retirement, I will finally win that shit!  I mean, I probably won't really win it, but if I did, it would more likely happen then than now.  It really pisses me off.

Anyhow, there are a lot of other things that I want too and it would be awesome if I could have them now; when it matters the most.

Oh well....I guess I will just continue to "Want".

Jan. 29th, 2009

Annoyed

It drives me insane to be ignored!  I can't stand it!  WHY do people just not respond???  Is it really that hard to take a minute to answer a yes or no question?  ....not even a minute, actually!  UGH!

I know it shouldn't bother me because I have moved on and have a drama free life (for the most part) but for some reason *it*/*they*/*this person* just gets to me.  I allow it because I can't help it.  I'm so pissed off!

I don't have any expectations out of this person whatsoever so I'm never really disappointed, however, they still manage to easily annoy me.  My emotions and feelings are so flip-flop, back 'n forth, etc...

The only thing that is holding me back from doing something that could be so incredibly stupid and maybe great at the same time is my boyfriend.  If he just wasn't so perfect...

-but he is.

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Jan. 28th, 2009

A Super Nerd-Core Party

We're having a nerd party at our house on March 7th.  By "our" I mean, me and Erok.  yeah, he's the dude that I wrote about near the beginning.  We will be inviting all of our friends along with any and all other socially awkward people.




I will most likely post a video of it afterwards!

Jan. 27th, 2009

Pretending...

Fake is a term used to describe or imply something which is not real.
REALality is, "the state of things as they actually exist."


Why do some people pretend to be one way when they really are another?  Wouldn't that make them 'fake'?  Say they smile and say you are friends but then turn around and frown and say they hate you behind your back; wouldn't that be fake?  BUT, what if they really are your friend and they really do like you but they are only saying that to make other people happy?  So they are real but they aren't..?

Have you ever been nice to someone to their face and maybe have even made them believe that you really liked them and considered them as a friend when you were really just doing that because you didn't want to seem like a bitch to their face; because you really don't have a reason not to like them...?  Do you only talk to those people when your real friends aren't around?  

I, personally, hate people that do that.  It is really getting on my nerves and if you are someone who is reading this and are thinking, "Is she talking about me?", then you are guilty and I am obviously talking about you!  :)  This isn't directed towards one person but many people.  Too many people are fake but still claim to be real in their friendships, relationships, etc.  You should stop lying to yourself.  If you don't like someone, then don't talk to them at all.  Be honest.  Don't tell your friends that you dislike someone and then have to hide the fact that you feel the opposite.  If they are your real friends, they will understand and get over it.  Stop pretending....

Jan. 19th, 2009

Signs of Deception

Body Language:  She takes up less space by keeping her hands, legs, etc closer to her body.  She will avoid eye contact.  Her hands will touch her face, throat & mouth; maybe even touch or scratch her nose or behind her ear.

Contradiction:  Self explanatory!

Interactions and Reactions:

• She person gets defensive.  An innocent person will often go on the offensive.

• She is uncomfortable facing her questioner/accuser and may turn her head or body away.

• She might unconsciously place objects (book, coffee cup, etc.) between herself and you.


Liars sometimes avoid "lying" by not making direct statements. They imply answers instead of denying something directly.  The guilty person may speak more than natural, adding unnecessary details to convince you... they are not comfortable with silence or pauses in the conversation.

The brains of pathological liars have structural abnormalities that could make fibbing come naturally.

 

Pathological liars, or "mythomaniacs," may be suffering from histrionic personality disorder or narcissistic personality disorder. The following comments basically reflect a pathological liar who has the characteristics of histrionic personality disorder.

Some characteristics:

1. Exaggerates things that are ridiculous.

2. One-upping. Whatever you do, this person can do it better. You will never top them in their own mind, because they have a concerted need to be better than everyone else. This also applies to being right. If you try to confront an individual like this, no matter how lovingly and well-intentioned you might be - this will probably not be effective. It's threatening their fantasy of themselves, so they would rather argue with you and bring out the sharp knives than admit that there's anything wrong with them.

3. They "construct" a reality around themselves. They don't value the truth, especially if they don't see it as hurting anyone. If you call them on a lie and they are backed into a corner, they will act very defensively and say ugly things (most likely but depends on personality), but they may eventually start to act like, "Well, what's the difference? You're making a big deal out of nothing!" (again, to refocus the conversation to your wrongdoing instead of theirs).

4. Because these people don't value honesty, a lot of times they will not value loyalty. So watch what you tell them. They will not only tell others, but they will embellish to make you look worse. Their loyalty is fleeting, and because they are insecure people, they will find solace in confiding to whomever is in their favor at the moment.

5. They may be somewhat of a hypochondriac. This can come in especially useful when caught in a lie, for example, they can claim that they have been sick, or that there's some mysteriously "illness" that has them all stressed out. It's another excuse tool for their behavior.

6. Obviously, they will contradict what they say. This will become very clear over time. They usually aren't smart enough to keep track of so many lies (who would be?).

All of the above reminds me of someone.  I think it is sad and they need to seek medical treatment; ASAP!

To hide that pain from herself, she uses all the lies she can concoct to hurl at the world as she runs in fear from her own goodness.
 





Hate continued...

The forces of hate are like a ladder that takes you from fear and despair to happiness and bliss. You may start out with anger and hatred, but those will soon lead you into determination. Once you are determined to make a change, soon you will find the creativity and the excitement to see your plans through. And the better life gets, the better you feel and the better your creations feel. Eventually you will move from anger and hatred of your situation to happiness and joy as you watch it unfold before you.

Anger is good. Hatred is good. They are the first steps on the road to making something happen. Wallowing in despair only keeps your focus on your current reality and therefore will continue to create your current reality. It is a static change that occurs. Putting an emotion as strong as anger or hatred behind your desires will keep you from focusing on your current reality and shift your focus onto what you wish to achieve. Anger will give you a goal. You denounce where you are and present yourself with a goal toward which you can work.

For now, I continue to hate and therefore I do NOT fear; I have become creative and soon you will watch my happiness unfold before you!


Jan. 13th, 2009

HATE TO HATE

I'M WRITING THIS ENTRY IN CAPS TO SHOW THE EMPHASIS I'D LIKE TO ADD TO MY FEELINGS.

WE ARE TAUGHT AT A YOUNG AGE NOT TO HATE.  IS IT REALLY WRONG TO HATE?  IF SO, WHY?  WHY WOULD IT BE WRONG TO HATE SOMEONE FOR HURTING YOU OR SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE DEARLY?  IF A MAN RAPED YOU OR YOUR DAUGHTER OR SISTER, WOULD YOU NOT HATE HIM?  IF SOMEONE IN YOUR FAMILY OR SOMEONE VERY CLOSE TO YOU WAS BRUTALLY MURDERED, WOULD YOU NOT FEEL SOME FORM OF HATRED TOWARDS THAT PERSON THAT MURDERED THEM?  WHAT IF THERE WAS A CERTAIN PERSON THROUGHOUT MIDDLE OR HIGH SCHOOL THAT MADE FUN OF YOU TO NO END AND MADE YOU FEEL TERRIBLE ABOUT YOURSELF; WOULD YOU NOT HATE THEM?  WHAT IF YOUR BABY WAS DIAGNOSED WITH SOMETHING THERE WASN'T A CURE FOR?  WHAT IF EVERYONE TOLD YOU, "GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS AND HAS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING."; WOULD YOU BLAME GOD AND MAYBE EVEN HATE HIM/HER FOR IT??  I COULD GO ON AND ON AND ON WITH THESE SCENARIOS.

I DON'T BELIEVE THAT IT IS NECESSARILY WRONG TO HATE.  WHO SAYS IT'S WRONG TO HATE ANYWAY?!  GOD?  WELL LETS SAY THAT GOD DID SAY THAT IT IS WRONG TO HATE AND THEN YOU HATED ANYWAY.  WHAT IS OR WOULD BE YOUR CONSEQUENCE? 

ON THE FLIP SIDE, WHAT GOOD IS IT TO HATE?  DOES IT ACTUALLY MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER TO HATE?  IS IT JUST A FEELING YOU HAVE AND CAN'T HELP TO FEEL BECAUSE OF SOMETHING THAT PERSON OR PERSONS HAVE DONE TO YOU?  ARE YOU JUST HATEFUL FOR NO REASON AT ALL?  WHY DO PEOPLE EVEN DO HATEFUL THINGS TO ANYONE; EVEN IF THEY HAVE A REASON TO FEEL THE WAY THAT THEY DO, WHY TRY TO STRIKE AT ANOTHER PERSON WITH HATRED?  WHAT DOES HATRED RESOLVE?

I HONESTLY DON'T HAVE THE ANSWERS TO ANY OF THOSE QUESTIONS BUT I CAN TELL YOU THAT I HAVE HATE IN ME AND I HATE QUITE A FEW PEOPLE.  I THINK THEY DESERVE TO BE HATED BY ME AND PROBABLY MANY OTHERS AS WELL.  I ALSO REALIZE THAT MY HATRED FOR THOSE PEOPLE DOESN'T HELP ME IN ANY WAY WHATSOEVER.  I SOMETIMES WISH IT DID.  WELL, NOT SOMETIMES, BUT ALL OF THE TIME!  I OFTEN THINK OF THINGS THAT I WISH COULD HAPPEN TO THAT PERSON OR THOSE PEOPLE TO MAKE THEM SUFFER FOR DOING ME HARM OR JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE MANAGED TO MAKE ME HATE THEM. 

I HAVE FIGURED IT OUT!  IF ANYONE THAT I HAVE EVER CARED ABOUT HAS MANAGED TO MAKE ME DISLIKE THEM SO MUCH TO THE EXTENT THAT I ACTUALLY HATE THEM AND WISH HARM TO THEM, I HATE THEM EVEN MORE!  I ACTUALLY HATE TO HATE!  THE MORE I HATE ON WHOEVER, THE MORE PISSED OFF I GET BECAUSE I HATE THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO HATE THEM.  I SAY I HAVE TO HATE THEM BECAUSE I DO.  I CAN'T HELP HOW I FEEL. 

THERE IS ONE THING I KNOW THAT I AM NOT AND THAT IS A SAINT.  FORGIVENESS IS DEFINITELY NOT IN MY VOCABULARY AND IT JUST DOESN'T HAPPEN WITH ME.  IF I TRULY HATE YOU, THERE IS A REASON AND YOU WILL NOT EVER BE FORGIVEN.  I REALIZE THAT IT DOESN'T DO ME ANY GOOD TO NOT FORGIVE OR TO CONTINUE TO HATE BUT I DO KNOW THAT IT ALSO WOULDN'T DO ME ANY GOOD IF I DID FORGIVE AND STOP HATING (IF IT WAS EVEN POSSIBLE).  SERIOUSLY, WHAT IF I FORGAVE EVERY PERSON THAT I HATED??  IF ANYTHING, I WOULD END UP HATING MYSELF FOR FORGIVING THEM AND LETTING THEM BACK INTO MY LIFE. 

EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS, "THEY'RE AN 'EX' FOR A REASON."  WELL, I HATE THEM FOR A REASON.  I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP THEM OUT OF MY LIFE FOR A REASON.  MOST PEOPLE WHO END UP TAKING THEIR EXES BACK END UP GETTING SCREWED OVER AGAIN AND AGAIN.  WHY?  I THINK IT'S A LESSON SOME PEOPLE DON'T LEARN UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE. 

SOME PEOPLE GUARD THEMSELVES AND THEIR HEARTS FROM LOVE, WELL I TRY TO GUARD IT FROM HATE.  I TRY SO HARD TO TRUST PEOPLE AND BE THE PERSON THAT I REALLY AM BUT I ALWAYS TEND TO LET IN THE WORST PEOPLE EVER.  I END UP BEFRIENDING AND CARING ABOUT THE MOST FUCKED UP HUMAN BEINGS.  IT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME BECAUSE I ALWAYS LIKE TO BELIEVE IN THE BEST OF PEOPLE.  I DON'T LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE COULD ONLY WANT TO BE MY FRIEND TO USE ME, ETC.  WHEN I DO REALIZE THESE THINGS, IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY AND I BEGIN TO LOOK DOWN ON SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE OF THESE FEW BAD APPLES.  IT'S LIKE BEING MARRIED TO AN ADULTERER AND THEN NOT TRUSTING ANOTHER MAN BECAUSE OF IT.  ALL MEN AND ALL WOMEN ARE NOT THE SAME.  I REALIZE THIS AND I GUESS YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL WHO YOU PICK AS YOUR FRIENDS, LOVERS, ETC. 

IF YOU DO PICK THE WRONG PERSON AND THEY SCREW YOU OVER, JUST LET THEM GO.....SAVE YOURSELF FROM HATRED.

Jan. 9th, 2009

Holy Moly!!!!

I almost forgot about this thing and good it feels to write about the things that bother me and get it all out.  It's seriously just as good as actually talking to someone about it.

I have sooo much on my mind these days and so many things I want to say and get out in the open.  I must begin by saying that so much has changed since the last time I wrote on here.  It's so crazy!  I just read my last two entries and I was floored!  I somehow manage to amaze myself at times.  lol.  I just want to make sure that it is understood first and foremost that me and the guy are exactly where we should be and slowing down or backing up at this point would be absolutely ridiculous!  I love him more than ever and it just continues to get stronger by the second.  Yep; not day, hour or even minute, but every second!  He has been there for me so much lately, I don't know how I will ever be able to show my appreciation.  My best friend moved across the country and while I still look forward to talking to her and her advice on certain subjects, I am beginning to rely on him more and more everyday.  He is the first one I turn to when I am confused and need help making the 'right' choices.  He is probably one of the smartest people I know and it's nice to know that I have him in my life and can continue to count on him.  

I have to get back to work now but I WILL be back!  :)

Sep. 22nd, 2008

Friends.

What do you do when 2 of your closest friends don't like one another and are arguing?

Jesus.  I'm so caught in the middle and I have tried so hard to make them both understand that really they are just a like and that they should start over and give each other a chance.  I HATE it!  I love them both.....

I am just way too stressed out these days!

Either way, I saw Magnetic Flowers last night and it was AWESOME!  I had a blast!  I was a little disappointed about something else prior to the show buuut, I think I'm about half-way over it.  I just made a mistake and now I need to work REALLY hard at fixing it!  (It's still killing me that I was so stupid tho!)  Grrrr!

I actually hope that nobody is reading this.  I think by not writing for so long ppl have forgotten and that's great!  lol.  Except for Erin, of course.

Erin if you are reading, I truly miss you!  I wish I had the money to visit you in Reno..although it'd be Bad News Bears!  Ha...


xoxox bRandy!

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Confusion.

I have been soo busy lately and I feel as if I have ignored the ones that I love the most; not entirely but more than I should.  Now I find myself having weird thoughts and feeling confused.  I'm worried that what once felt so real may have only been a side effect of comfort.  Is it really supposed to be this easy? 

Why do I always have to deal with not only MY past but their's too?  I've always thought of myself as a strong person but lately I have been extremely weak.  I can't even go into detail on this one so I'm just going to leave it at that.

Is it meant to be or am I just a victim of circumstance?  I know this all too well.  I just don't want it to happen again and I'm not sure how to go about making the right decision to prove otherwise.  I definately don't want to lose the best thing that's happened to me but who says I won't lose him anyway?  If he's her "Mr. Big", what am I?  There is just too much of the past floating around in my everyday life.  I can't even sit on the couch without having random bad thoughts...things that make me want to puke everywhere. 

Even as our bare bodies were close and at our most intimate moment, I felt as if I wanted to cry.  I really don't know why.  I honestly can't even find the words to describe all that goes through my head sometimes.  I'm completely confused about everything; well almost. 

I think, well KNOW, that we somehow managed to skip a staircase of steps in our relationship.  Is that a good thing?  Should we maybe try to take it back a little; at least half-way back down those steps?  I don't even know what that means or how to do that but I'm definately scared to move forward any faster than we already have.  I need to feel "safe" before I can do anything.  It makes me sad because I know you can't help and it's really not at al your fault.  I wish I knew how to make you not worry because the last thing I want to do is hurt you.  I just have to look out for myself as well. 

I really hate to admit it but I'm still really not over the shit that happened previous to you.  I think that is another big problem.  I really did love him and the fact that I let him do me the way that he did, drives me absolutely insane.  I know I wasn't perfect in that relationship by far, but I was TRYING to be mean and hurtful.  I only regret it becasue it was wrong but I still strongly believe that he deserved(s) it!  It's also another reminder of how awesome things can be in the beginning and then BAM!, it's all over and you aren't even friends!  It sucks! 

I just don't know the right way to handle this.  Should I just try to ignore it and continue to live my life day by day and whatever happens, happens??

I don't know.

May. 20th, 2008

The Vagina Monologues...part I


May. 16th, 2008

Update: 70's Track 'n Field Party


Here is some footage of the fun you missed out on if you didn't show up!

May. 13th, 2008

Track Record

So I was in NBT last night and according to B.S. (who is apparently full of B.S.) tells me he doesn't trust me becuase I "have a track record"!  Guess what!  I DO have a track record!  Yep; a track record for dating douchebags *spelling* who don't realize what they have until it's too late!  

As he continued to babble, he kept saying things like, "I apoligize if this hurts your feelings" or "No offense"....and I can honestly say, "no apoligy needed" and "none taken" because I am a strong independent woman and I KNOW I am better than most of these girls around here.  There is no way I would allow myself to get upset or even worry about what some guy has to say about me; especially a guy that doesn't even know me!  It's annoying to me though when people go around saying things about me and even to my face, and they don't have a clue who I am!  You think because you know my name that you know me??  If you really want to know who I am or are interested in my track record, then do your homework!  Ask people who matter and people who have known me and THEN tell me what you think!  I'm positive that if you still don't like me, or "trust" me, it's because YOU have issues.  You are a part of this circle and you keep running around and around...eventually you will get dizzy and fall down my friend!  You will be more than surprised when you look up and see who is standing there to help pick you back up!  Sometimes I am just too nice!  :)

So I'll end this by saying: "You think you know, but you have NO IDEA!"



 

May. 9th, 2008

70's Track 'n Field Party!

 Hosted By:
Mike Haynes

When:
Saturday May 10, 2008
at 8:00 PM

Where:
4534 Oakwood Dr
Columbia, SC 29206
United States

70s Track and Field THEME/BIRTHDAY PARTY

Ok everyone.  My friend is having a party for one of his roomates.  It doesnt matter if you know him because it's also a theme party.  The theme is 70s Track and Field.   Dont worry about money. Tip if you'd like or dont. FOOD/BEER/Possible roller skates/Music/ and DANCE!!! INVITE THE WORLD. ANYONE IS WELCOME.

JUST GOING TO HAVE A GOOD TIME! 


Mar. 11th, 2008

Starting Over!

This is the beginning.....